IVF over 40's #42

[Lastchance75]

I'm holding up ok @Phia 5 days to go. I'm so scared there is going to be nothing there.

[Phia]

Someone asked (pingc383?) if I was a poas kinda girl. TBH, I'm pretty good at abstaining because I've seen way to many lonely lines in my time!
So, I will probably wait until my blood test which is on Nov 14, which is 11dp5dt. I am dreading that phone call because the last time I was so super convinced (scratch, pred, clexane, PGD embryo) I distinctly remember that rock bottom "WTF is wrong with me FFS!' reaction..... Anyway, more than anything I am to trying to manage my expectations....Until then, I'm stuck in crazytown!

[Phia]

I'm holding up ok @Phia 5 days to go. I'm so scared there is going to be nothing there.

I honestly know that feeling, so I am sending you the biggest, warmest reassuring hugs I can. I hope you have dear friends that can distract you over the next five days... You've come so far and I have every finger and toe crossed for you. C'MON UNIVERSE! My poison is binge-watching a tv series, grocery shopping and maniacally cooking. Today, I steam washed the sofa in the family room and the rug. Washed cushion covers. I'm not an obsessive cleaner - I'm actually not a great cleaner at all (great cook though!).

[Phia]

Jeepers this TWW is grinding. For some reason I thought I was 5dpt, but I'm only 3dpt. Of course that means symptom free! My boobs are copping feels left right and centre as they are def one of my earliest symptoms. Good morning from crazy town...it's not even 7am...it's gonna be long TWW. I'm here all week, try the veal!

[BlondeinBrisvegas]

Jeepers this TWW is grinding. For some reason I thought I was 5dpt, but I'm only 3dpt. Of course that means symptom free! My boobs are copping feels left right and centre as they are def one of my earliest symptoms. Good morning from crazy town...it's not even 7am...it's gonna be long TWW. I'm here all week, try the veal!

Hopefully one of your embies will be starting to pump out that HCG as I type!!!

You are a strong woman not to cave and start POAS in a few days time Luv I must say!!!! Of course, that will make our "POAS Queen" (aka @Blossom74) a most unhappy camper as she does look forward to a "stick pic" or 10!!

Well, we all do actually...However...we also respect a Lovelies choice to discover the results of her Cycle as she so chooses!!! Meanwhile...back in "Crazy Town"..it sounds as though you'' be cooking up a storm this week Luv!!

I used to clean like I was an amphetamine addicted Paula Duncan clone on one of those Spray and Wipe ad's when I was in the 2WTorture or else I was baking up a storm in the kitchen....biscuits..slices...cakes etc..like some kind of a crack addicted Pastry Chef!!!

It's a wonder I didn't come out the othe side of it looking like the "Mama Cass" after the emotional eating binge that followed suit once I'd pulled whatever it was out of the the oven I'd cooked that day!!!

Anyhoo...the veal sounds good!!! What's on the menu this week???

Hang in there Luv.....It'll be BT day before you know it!!!

[BlondeinBrisvegas]

I'm holding up ok @Phia 5 days to go. I'm so scared there is going to be nothing there.

You hang in there too Luv!!!

Not long to go before you see your sticky little bean!!!

[BlondeinBrisvegas]

- @Blossom74 One more sleep to go for you Luv!!!!

Your big day is tomorrow Luv!!!! How bloody exciting!!!!

[BlondeinBrisvegas]

Good Morning to all the other Lovelies......


Hope you're all having a lovely weekend so far!!!!

Was an absolute stinker up here yesterday!!!

I am not a fan of summer at all!! As in the season not our lovely member on the thread here!!!

Got heat wave conditions ahead of us this week with the BOM predicting 37 degrees for Thurs!!!! FFS's!!!!!

Anyhoo.....Hope you all have a fantabulous Sunday!!!!!! xoxoox

[Jazzabelle13]

Hi everyone

i have been mia trying to sort out the confusion in my head about what to do about continuing. My heart won't let go even when everything else wants to give up around me but just don't know what to do.
@Billie2 I'm so sorry it didn't work out for you, you have been such a supporter on this thread and I am so glad you have found peace with ending the infertility journey.
@mysticfallls can I ask how old your DD is and what did you say to her about project sibling. my DD probably needs a conversation too but don't know how to approach it.
@Heyside I'm sorry the embies have dropped off, I know how that feels it's a major rug being pulled out from underneath u. I once had 27 eggs retrieved and only 1 embie to put back at Day 2, it's like what the hell happened to them, if only we could have some answers. Fx the others thrive.

[Blossom74]

- @Blossom74 One more sleep to go for you Luv!!!!

Your big day is tomorrow Luv!!!! How bloody exciting!!!!

Thanks BIB. I am absolutely petrified at this point, and I am just wanting a definitive answer either way. I'm not feeling hopeful TBH The bleed rattled me to the core I'm afraid, I just can't let it go. Let's hope today goes by quickly so I can move forward one way or the other hey.