I think every new mother goes through the stage you've just explained.
I currently (even though my DS is almost a year old) am still going through all of this.
I still bf which means it's still falling all onto me majority of the time, I get mastitis almost every month due to hormone imbalances, which I DO NOT wish Apon anyone! Mastitis is very much the devil!
I can't cope with the whole 'being a new mum and losing who I am outside of mummy'.
I love my son dearly and wouldn't change him or having him for anything in the world, but sometimes (99% of the time for myself .) it is overwhelming being responsible for a little human, who although you carried for 9 months, you don't know and have to learn to understand etc.
do not feel like you are alone, we are all here, we have all either been there and or are currently going through it right now.
And with every new milestone (not sure what else to call it) it gets a little bit harder, at least for my it has. As things change, the amount of stress you have will too, and even though it's a hard and terrifying transaction you'll still find yourself missing it as they get older!!
PM if you'd like to chat lovely
Edit: it gets easier not harder! Haha whoops
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19-07-2015 16:25 #21Senior Member
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19-07-2015 19:57 #22Senior Member
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Three weeks in and already struggling
OP, I could have written your post when I was 3 weeks in. I really missed my old life and I had times everyday where I felt scared at what we had done and the responsibility I had to this little individual. I am 5 months in now and I can tell you that it has gotten so much easier and although babies are still hard work I no longer have those feelings of 'what have I done!?'
In the beginning I'd feel happy if I got to go out on my own as it just felt like the old me. It was comfortable. Now it feels weird to go out without bub.
As for our cat, she still drives me batty but I think the thing is that she takes a second place to DD all day so when DD goes to bed she figures it's her turn for attention and is all over me. By that time in the day all I want is some space. I still lose my temper and have been known to just stand up so she can't sit on my knee. Isn't that awful!? I'm embarrassed to even admit that.
19-07-2015 20:16 #23
I remember at some point thinking "I am so over changing nappies, I don't want to do this anymore" lol! I think I've changed about 9000 nappies since then and I don't even notice anymore. You get used to it
19-07-2015 20:49 #24
When I had my first I remember thinking "what have I done?!" several times. I was lost, overwhelmed, emotionally fragile, and physically shattered. And I felt awful because we had tried for a year, had a miscarriage, then conceived DD against the odds given our fertility issues - I was supposed to feel happy and grateful! What kind of person was I?? I now realise that so many mothers go through these feelings and it's ok to feel that way at times.
It's a cliche but it really does get easier - not because kids get easier (every age has it's challenges!) but because you grow as a mother and learn what works for you and your child. It takes time, no one would expect you to fix a broken car or play the violin flawlessly without training and practice. You're a first year apprentice, cut yourself some slack
19-07-2015 23:57 #25
I could have written your post word for word OP! My DS was preemie & emergency CS. We were in hospital for 10 days and I remember walking out the doors of the hospital and it hit me like a ton of bricks! The world was suddenly too big after being stuck in a room for too long and we suddenly had this vulnerable little life that we were responsible for. We got home and I just burst into tears and told my DH that I think we'd made a big mistake and I wished we could take him back to the hospital. It was all just so overwhelming and terrifying. I also felt so guilty about my beloved fur babies being booted outside and not getting as much love and attention. I found myself wishing it could all just go back to 'normal'. I grieved my loss of freedom and felt quite detached from my DS. And I felt so guilty for feeling that way! We had had a mc before falling with DS, and I knew I should be grateful, and that it should be how I pictured - loving newborn snuggles and rainbows! Ha!
It lasted a couple of weeks, until I started to get the hang of things. I was terrified about DH going back to work as he seemed to be the one who was a natural and knew what he was doing. But I actually found it easier once I could get into my own routine and work it out for myself. Once DS was about 2-3 months old and sleeping better I really started enjoying him more. Sleep deprivation turns me into a crazy person, so getting DH to do one overnight feed was a life saver in those early days. DS (now 2) is absolutely the coolest, funniest, most amazing little person I know and every day I think my heart couldn't possibly cope with loving him anymore than I do, but evey day that love just grows more and more.
I never sugar coat the early days when talking about it, and every one of my mummy friends has admitted that they had those moments too in the first few months. I think being honest about it yourself gives others permission to be honest about it too, and that can be a real life line!
It does get better. Hang in there! Xo
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