Well today we found out that we MC'd our first baby.
This was our first attempt and we conceived in April.
I guess last night when it happened I tried to convince myself I was prepared for it but honestly I feel numb.
I don't have any feeling left about it and that scares me most of all. I don't know how to feel about it either.
I didn't react when the sonographer told me i felt like I knew already.
It's weird I felt like I knew before the U.S something changed yesterday arvo and it was done.
I've cried and apologized to DH ( who told me not to be stupid) I just feel that I have let him and myself down. I've talked with DH who is upset about it too.
I feel I need to start training again (physical training) like i think I need to make my core stronger and I need to be fitter and maybe that will help.
I know now isn't the time to be looking for answers and I shouldn't blame myself (kinda hard not too) but I'm home most of the day and I'm pretty sure I can't clean much more then I have today ( tomorrow the lounge gets pulled out and vaccines under).
I'm just not sure about anything.
Sorry for those who read this it's a bit long winded but I needed too see my thoughts on paper. I'm so confused on what to do next.
Keep on keeping on.
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19-05-2015 19:01 #1
Numb (rambling )
19-05-2015 19:11 #2Member
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I am very sorry for you loss. It's never an easy thing to go through. Please take the time you need to process your loss and spend time talking about it with your hubby. I do hope that you are able to move forward when the time is right and try for another little one. Take good care of your self.
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20-05-2015 06:42 #3Senior Member
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*Big hugs.* Be gentle to yourself and let yourself feel whatever emotions you are having. There is no wrong or right response. There is only what you need to do to get through. Take time for yourself, and your DH.
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20-05-2015 06:55 #4
Great big hugs xx it's ok to deal with loss in your own way.
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20-05-2015 09:57 #5
Thank you both.
Feeling a bit better today still disappointed.
20-05-2015 10:01 #6
I'm so sorry for your loss
Please go easy on yourself
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22-05-2015 21:22 #7Senior Member
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I'm so sorry this happened, it's such a shock isn't it? You sound like someone who really looks after themselves too. I can relate to that. I walked into my OB's office last appointment and asked him to tell me exactly what weight to be so this doesn't happen again. I told him to give me a number, even with a decimal point and I'll make it happen. He told me that with a BMI of 21 it wasn't my weight. I actually wanted it to be something like that, so then I could change it. Best advice I was given was to stop cleaning, stop moving, stop running, even just for an afternoon, and give in to the emotions. This is a big deal, and it's ok to feel just awful xx
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