I don't even know what to write as it hurts too much to admit -again. I'm seven weeks pregnant with my third bub- I should be bouncing off the walls perhaps- but I feel unhappy, emotional, stressed, lifeless and in a confused state of anger and sadness. I'm think I'm totally depressed... And I have been hoping this mood would lift but it hasn't. This isn't the first time for me though.. But it hurts just as much to admit and even though I have been through this before I feel even more stupid this time around. I was diagnosed with post and undiagnosed prenatal anxiety and depression second bub around- slowly with antidepressants and counselling I fought back into life and was happier than I ever felt in years. So a few months before we became pregnant this time I thought I would get prepared this time around. I saw my doc he referred me to a psychiatrist she weaned me off my antidepressants my counsellor was happy- all was looking good. Just seven weeks in and I'm feeling the same feeling of isolation, inability to express my feelings to my loved ones and sense of regret and fear about bringing a new life into the world with a mum who feels so sad. It's completely devastating as in my head I know I should be able to curtail these feelings- far out the psychiatrist thought I was so ready- in ny head im remenbering what the pschiatrist said to do when i feel like this but in my heart I'm withdrawing again and feeling so alone and helpless. I'm scared that I have failed again- everyone had faith I would be ok this time- i did too. I feel like im failing and i cant fail my children by being a withdrawn mum for the bext nine months. I love my children so much and so wanted another baby but the thought of nine months of this makes me want to run.
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14-12-2013 18:44 #1Junior Member
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Sad and confused
14-12-2013 18:56 #2
I don't know what to say... But it must mean something that you're able to recognize these feelings and you do remember what your psychiatrist has told you do when you feel this way. I hope that makes sense... You've taken positive steps to help yourself, and that makes you a great mum! Try and be kind to yourself and snot feel like you're failing anyone, you're trying your best :-) sorry that wasn't very helpful but I couldn't not reply
14-12-2013 18:56 #3
Lol snot should be don't!!!! 😳
14-12-2013 18:58 #4
Big hugs. Don't run. Your babies need you warts and all. There is no harm in making an appointment with the psych again. Sometimes things happen and come back and that's ok. It's unpleasant but not a failure. You've proven to be able to get through this before and you can do it again.
Do you have some family or DH that can give you a bit of a break at the moment to have some "me" time and get to some appointments?
21-03-2014 11:13 #5Senior Member
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How are things going? I just saw this post as been feeling really down lately and could identify with some of what you wrote. That inability to express yourself is really getting me down along with guilt that I'm withdrawing / not being a good mum. Luckily for me so far this has only really cropped up this week so I'm hoping it's just hormonal / unresolved identity crisis but I just don't know.
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