You've hit it spot on - the lesson is to trust in myself and I failed miserably :-( I had 21 day cycle last month, and initially I was very upset that my body was playing up, but then I had the thought that I was just getting my cycle sorted so that my ovulation matched my lunar cycle when I am meant to be most fertile due to astrology - so I trusted that a much bigger picture was at work and trusted that I needed that short cycle.
Then I did a heap of visualisation, I pictured my uterine lining building up a beautiful luscious home for my little one, picturd my ovaries producing a robust, healthy egg, I said a billion affirmations, I loved my body, I pictured the BFP etc etc. I felt AMAZING and I'm pretty sure I know the date I fell, because that next day I had these waves of 'knowing' washing over me.
Then when I got a BFN on the day AF was due, I fell to pieces. I was so sure, and I let it devastate me. I lost the trust that all was OK. I then went into massive doubt about my ability to fall pregnant - I am 42, have been told previously that I am infertile and about to go through menopause - my Mum went through menopause at 41, so when I didn't get my period and got BFNs I was so upset that I thought that was it - I was done. How little trust I have!
I even knew the timing was perfect because I fell almost on this exact date two years ago and even though it ended as an MMC, it was a sign that I wasn't infertile, and I believe the same little soul has come back.
So the happiness hasn't kicked in yet - I'm just thinking how much happier I could have been over the last week if I just trusted instead of immediately doubting myself and my body :-( Lots of lessons in this and I'm sure the happy will come very soon!!
Thank you so much for your support and I know your BFP is just around the corner.
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02-01-2014 15:50 #364
Congrats lei. There's nothing I can say that others haven't already. Rejoice in your amazing news :-)
02-01-2014 15:56 #365
Our blue print is already mapped out !
Know it's ur time , so put all that positive energy and thought that you did so well visualising in creating life and give all that energy back to you and ur new little life and heal and nurture each other - I believe only good can come from that !
Negative will only create negative
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02-01-2014 16:13 #366
Leisylou! Big congrats to you. Your bub will be fine, so don't feel guilty at all. So happy for you! And how amazing that you had another little person hiding away in there on your wedding day. That will be a great story to tell!
02-01-2014 16:22 #367
Congrats Leisylou!!! Wonderful news!
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02-01-2014 16:28 #368
I too believe in souls picking us all as parents. Our children's personalities are the way they are for a reason, they challenge us and bring us joy in all the way we need it.
Leisy, I will practice your visualisation technique. I've read a book on it and believe in it. We can all try and benefit from it for sure!
Me 31, He 34, DD 21 months, waiting for just 1 more to complete our family.
02-01-2014 16:34 #369
Thank you everyone for your wonderful support and reassurances that I haven't done long lasting damage by having a few wines over the Christmas break! I just know how much better I could have done things, had I held tight to the possibility that I could have been pregnant, rather than giving up all hope!!!
I'm a little less shell-shocked than I was this morning, so I'm sure I'll find some excitement soon :-) :-) Thank you all for being excited on my behalf!! It hasn't sunk in yet and I'm a little scared of getting too hopeful incase things don't work out - but I also know that stress and negativity don't help, so I'll hang onto the positives and get some scans done as soon as I can to make sure everything is looking OK :-)
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02-01-2014 16:37 #370
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