Just feel I need to get my story off my chest. This is (was) my second pregnancy - both via IVF. I have a little boy who was 11mths when we conceived again. The pregnancy was text book and I was showing quite a lot and we had just announced to all our family and friends.
A week ago I thought I was getting flu and saw my obstetrician who also thought I had early stages of flu. Baby was fine. 12 hours later I was in huge pain so went to delivery suits where they admitted me while trying to figure out what was going on. It turns out I had a staph infection in my blood and was very very sick.
They started treatment of antibiotics but that afternoon my waters broke. The OB did an ultrasound and the babies heart was still beating but all the water around the baby was gone. The OB explained that the baby had virtually no chance of survival and that it was more than likely I would go into labour overnight and deliver the baby. If I didn't go into labour naturally they would ultimately have to administer drugs to bring on labour. At that point he was happy to wait however said that if my health deteriorated he would have to take matters out of our hands and start the induction.
The OB was great and explained how the labour would feel, that I would have to push the baby out and that the baby may move and try to breath, but that it would quickly die. The staff would wrap the baby and photograph it etc.
We lasted the night and in the morning I spoke to the OB as I didn't feel up to delivering the baby and wanted to understand our options. Surgical delivery was explained to us and we were encouraged to have a high res ultrasound. I am really glad we did this.
Firstly, the u/s showed our baby had died overnight and so we felt much better that we weren't having to choose to end the babies life. Secondly, our baby had been quite badly damaged by the lack of waters. The uterine walls had closed around the baby and as its skeleton was not yet solid it had become quite disformed. The head was very squashed and the spine was badly bent in a couple of places.
This reaffirmed our decision to opt for surgical delivery - I am really glad I didn't deliver the baby and have to see the misshapen little thing. I will remember it as the fat little healthy baby sucking its thumb from our NT scan.
Our baby was delivered surgically that evening. Initial tests show that the baby was perfectly healthy prior to me getting sick.
Now I am embarking on the physical recovery from the illness but also the emotional recovery from losing our baby.
At this point it is the little things that I find challenging: the box full of maternity clothes that i ordered online that just arrived, putting my hands on my swollen belly and not feeling anything anymore, our Christmas holiday plans that should have been as a family of 4 being readjusted back to organizing for 3....
Thanks for listening. Any advice or suggestions warmly welcomed.
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07-05-2013 19:24 #1
Baby lost at 16 weeks...
07-05-2013 19:27 #2
I dont know what else to say. but i just wanted to say I'm so, so sorry for your loss.
07-05-2013 19:28 #3
I'm so sorry for your loss
Sent from my talky stick
07-05-2013 19:31 #4
So sorry for you loss. Take care of yourself ((hugs))
07-05-2013 19:33 #5
Oh Bedlover, I have nothing useful to say except that I am so very very sorry, both for the actual loss of your bub and that you had to go through that. I was so happy that you got your BFP in Jan/Feb and cannot imagine how you're feeling -- my losses were much earlier, and you must have felt you were in the 'safe zone'. Be as kind to yourself as you possibly can - eat nice food, buy pretty things, whatever makes you feel better even for a few minutes.
Don't be shy about going to see a counsellor either -- they can be very helpful and you must have so much going on in your head and heart at the moment.
07-05-2013 19:36 #6Senior Member
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I am so sorry for the loss of your little baby. I lost my baby at 15 weeks, 4 months ago also due to infection & problems with the placenta. Our stories are quite similar. I had been checked by my ob the day before as I felt something wasn't right then my water broke the next morning. We waited but my waters didn't regenerate & I didn't go into labour so I was induced & delivered naturally. There seems to be costant reminders everywhere. Wishing you all the best moving forward
07-05-2013 19:37 #7
I'm so incredibly sorry for your tragic loss
My thoughts are with you and your family xx huge hugs.
May your beautiful baby look over you and your family forever x
07-05-2013 19:38 #8
Oh darling, I wish I could wrap my arms around you. I'm so sorry for what you have been through and for such a senseless loss. I speak from my heart when I tell you that losing a child in this way is one of the most heartbreaking things we will ever have to endure. Have you a name for your angel?
Busy Baking my rainbow, due July 2013
07-05-2013 19:38 #9Senior Member
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Wow u poor honey!!! Massive hugs to you sweetie! I hope u take the time k grieve and recover physically ASAP xxx
07-05-2013 19:39 #10Member
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I'm so sorry for your loss.
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