For no reason in particular, just a heap of things. All while trying to figure out what is the "right" thing to do.
I don't really expect anyone to read this, I just need to get my scrambled thoughts out somewhere.
So we moved from SA to QLD in May. We have decided we want to move home. We miss it, we mua our family and our friends. We could go in Feb or end August. We are leaning toward Feb.
We came here with nothing and made it. But for some reason I'm absolutely petrified of going home. I know I need to stop thinking about the what ifs.
What if DH doesn't get a job? But if we stay, what if his contract isn't renewed? Which is very possible at the moment. But if it IS renewed, is it better for his career to stay here? He doesn't even want a career... I want him to have a stable, steady job & income that he enjoys. He doesn't care so much. He wants to work minimum hours for good money.
If he doesn't get a job we cant get a house.. What if we are still staying with mum when the baby is born!!! 4 of us crammed into one tiny bedroom just won't work.
I don't want to rely on family to bail us out. I want a steady income. I want to study something, but I don't know what. I want to study something and COMPLETE IT! I always quit on everything. I want to get a good job when ds goes to kindy.
We came here to get ahead and pay off our ddebts and start knocking down the mortgage. We haven't even touched the mortgage! We paid off other debts, which we would have done anyway, as we used our tax money!
We HAVE learnt a lot. It's been an adventure. We were stuck in a rut. Dh has proven to himself that he can do something other than retail (but he still lacks confidence!!!) And most of all, we moved on from the loss of Luka. We had a great holiday on the way up just the 3 of us.
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04-10-2012 08:04 #1
Feeling like a failure today....
04-10-2012 08:06 #2
And feeling like maybe we should have waited to get pregnant again. Waited uuntil we were more financially stable and settled. I ffeel so guilty :-( :-(
04-10-2012 08:13 #3
Couldn't read and not comment. I hit want to give you hugs! You have to make the decision that feels right to you, this is your journey and noone on here can tell you what they think you should do!
Don't feel guilty about having another baby, you will make it work! Hugs I really hope you work out the answers to your questions xxxxx
04-10-2012 09:47 #4
I couldn't not post hugs either
have you chatted to DH about your concerns? would he listen/ understand?
a lot of things can happen between now and Feb
04-10-2012 09:56 #5
Uggghhh, I know exactly how you feel. I have been feeling off yesterday & today. Hard to shake it. All the thoughts in your head and negative thoughts that creep in ... And it just compounds. I know I always feel better once a decision is made and then I can just get on with it, but he angst leading up to making that decision sux.
anyway, I get where you're at!
Hope your head clears and you feel better soon.
04-10-2012 12:53 #6
Lif is so very short. Don't over think everything, just do or go with what your instincts are telling you.
Love, live and be HAPPY :-) Life has a funny way of working itself out, and even you said it... You LEARN along the way :-)
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