Over-35s TTC#1 thread 3

[Shell Bell]

Hi Ladies, newby here, and yep I fit into the over 35's and TTC #1. Gee it was nice to find this, I was a bit stressed thinking I was the only one. Just entering cycle 5 with no luck, wishing I hadn't left it so late now.

[Welsh Mummy]

Thanks Hun. Since the weight gain I have been very down. Although I have since lost a small amount of weight since then, but I have no idea why I feel this way. I haven't felt like this in a very long time. I really do hope you're right and things pick up. I hate feeling and . I guess only time will tell.

It really did suck not getting the job, but the school has told me not to worry as they have about 3 or 4 more children who would be needing a special needs EA and of course i'm at the top of the list, so not too worried about that. At least I know I have a job until the end of term with the possibility of an extension for next term.

It was crap having thrush and DH home and not being able to DTD. He FIFO every second week, so the time we do DTD makes it even more special and since it's not that very often (maybe 2-3 times when he's home for 6 days) makes me feel like its because of the way I look. I do suffer from very low self esteem, so anything could set it off and this is a MAJOR one. But he has told me that it's not because of the way I look but because of his work. Now that he has taken on a Managerial position, he has been so stressed and busy. Last wednesday he received about 26 phone calls from work alone! So I can understand that, so i'm thinking that maybe i'm being a little selfish and insensitive in wanting to be intimate with him while he has so much to deal with. I don't know. Been a very crappy few weeks for me so I pray that things start to pick up real soon.

I know I have to stay strong, but it's pretty hard. I guess I just have to keep positive, try and lose more weight and think about the FS appointment on the 21st. Definitely not long to go now!

And how's AF treating you? Hope she wasn't too brutal for you. and sending a truck load of and your way. Hope your BFP is just around the corner.

Much love. xx

Hello Darling Girl,
I am sending you a bucket load of positivity, you can have a heap of mine because I am feeling great which is surprising when you take into consideration that AF arrived after being late. I take the last of my second round of Clomid tonight.
It must be really difficult when your DH FIFO. Have a chat about turning the phone off for some of his time at home, at the end of the day he is off duty. Maybe this will help you both get some special time together. With regards to the way you look, he married your heart and soul not the skin you walk around in so I am sure looks will not be an issue.
Much love sweetie, you know where I am.
Sarah

[Welsh Mummy]

Hi Ladies, newby here, and yep I fit into the over 35's and TTC #1. Gee it was nice to find this, I was a bit stressed thinking I was the only one. Just entering cycle 5 with no luck, wishing I hadn't left it so late now.

Welcome to our thread Shell Bell, I sincerely hope you are with us too long and you get your BFP soon. We are a very supportive, if not very chatty bunch so if you ever need to get anything off your chest fire away. Don't have any regrets about not starting sooner - it will make the journey so much harder. I know I have been at it 10 years, lol. Everyday is a new day and a day closer to achieving our important goal. Stick with it and I'm sure your stickyickle bub won't be too far away.
much love
Sarah

[Shell Bell]

Thanks Sarah, that's lovely to know.
I have been so wound up in what I thought was a career, and sporting activities I just kept saying to hubby, next year, next year. Things have changed in the last 2 years for me and what was important all came crashing down. I'm still picking up the pieces and dusting myself off and starting our new life (of more than 2) but I think the first month was a shock. I know how rediculous it sounds but I just expected it to happen, gosh, I have been involved in breeding dogs and horses and with some observations and maybe a few scans it was so easy.
Humans are far more difficult.
I have already learn't a few things from reading in here which is great.

[Welsh Mummy]

Thanks Sarah, that's lovely to know.
I have been so wound up in what I thought was a career, and sporting activities I just kept saying to hubby, next year, next year. Things have changed in the last 2 years for me and what was important all came crashing down. I'm still picking up the pieces and dusting myself off and starting our new life (of more than 2) but I think the first month was a shock. I know how rediculous it sounds but I just expected it to happen, gosh, I have been involved in breeding dogs and horses and with some observations and maybe a few scans it was so easy.
Humans are far more difficult.
I have already learn't a few things from reading in here which is great.

Yes animals are so much easier to breed, lol. We used to breed dogs, horses and goats. None of them ever had any trouble! Humans however have way too many contaminates in their lives. How many dogs do you know who are gluten, peanut and lactose intolerant to name just a few things. Then there are all the daily stresses we have to deal with. If I could give anyone advice, it would be to relax. This journey is hard so being relaxed about things but still having a just in case plan is important. I'm sorry you have been through a difficult time lately, it's all up from here sweetie. As they say, 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.' Be strong. Much love.
Sarah

[Shell Bell]

LOL Sarah

Well at least hubby and I have a new hobby now,

On one of your last points I think we have a sheep here that is a diabetic with motivational issues, there is no way he could be a father he couldn't be bothered.

For now, I'm realising it's actually quiet normal to take a while so we'll just have to keep up the research and development, or test and development, what ever it could be called.

[Hopefulmum2b]

Hello Darling Girl,
I am sending you a bucket load of positivity, you can have a heap of mine because I am feeling great which is surprising when you take into consideration that AF arrived after being late. I take the last of my second round of Clomid tonight.
It must be really difficult when your DH FIFO. Have a chat about turning the phone off for some of his time at home, at the end of the day he is off duty. Maybe this will help you both get some special time together. With regards to the way you look, he married your heart and soul not the skin you walk around in so I am sure looks will not be an issue.
Much love sweetie, you know where I am.
Sarah

Hi my Sweet,

Thank you so much for your kinds words of wisdom. Definitely makes me feel better. And thank you for the bucket load of positivity, because with the FS appointment in 14 days, i'm so going to need it.

Glad you're feeling good and for the last Clomid. So what's going to happen next? I've never taken it so don't quite know what goes on with that regards.

It is difficult having a DH who's always FIFO, but in a way it's good to because we get to spend sometime apart and do our own thing, but then I have either 3 or 6 days to spend with him when he's home (and not busy with work). Myself and my MIL have spoken to him about turning his phone of especially at night, but he said that he can't just in case there is an emergency and they need to get in contact with him. I say to him that what if there was an emergency? What can he do when he's back here in Perth and not on site? Surely they wouldn't want him to fly up to site on his days off? I don't know. I give up on that subject.

You are so right. He doesn't care what I look like. If he loved me when I was 127kgs (I know I was a VERY big girl), he will definitely love me while I look like this. I guess i'm doing this for the both of us so that we can finally make our baby dreams come true and he knows that, so I shouldn't really be thinking things like that.

Thank you again Sweetie for all your advice. Can always count on you.

Hi Ladies, newby here, and yep I fit into the over 35's and TTC #1. Gee it was nice to find this, I was a bit stressed thinking I was the only one. Just entering cycle 5 with no luck, wishing I hadn't left it so late now.

Hi Shell Bell ,

Sorry you find yourself on this thread, but at least you know that you are definitely not alone. I was thinking the same thing and was so glad when I found this thread. They are a great bunch of girls who don't judge you and let you rant and rave away and always offer the best adivice.

So good luck with everything and that your BFP is just around the corner.

[Feebs04]

Hello girls, I just thought I'd pop in and let you all know what's been happening with me. I just came home today after 5 days in hospital....hellooooo comfy bed!!!! I'm so glad to be home!!!! I had surgery on Monday after many tests. MRI (what an experience that was!!!) showed cancer was more extensive in the left boob than originally first thought so I've had mastectomy on that side and right boob there was a small growth that was removed even though it was benign. They removed some nodes from under my left arm and now I'm totally numb under the arm and down my left side. I've got two drains still attached to me which I carry around in a little baggy that the breast care nurse gave to me while in hospital....hopefully they will be removed soon as they are not only uncomfortable but it's kinda gross having to sleep with bags of blood next to you, even if it is your own!!!! I had what's called an "expander" put in under the muscle and this will gradually be filled with saline and the skin stretched so that 3-6 months from now I can have implants put in!!!! It's still quite confronting looking in the mirror and seeing no left boob there and I'm still trying to process it all. I'm back to the oncologist on Wednesday to see what follow up treatment I will have...she thinks at this stage it will only be radiotherapy, I'm hoping that's the case Alex has been absolutely wonderful and making sure I'm well looked after and feeling loved.

One interesting thing that has come out of all of this....finding out that the IVF I did in January, pumping all the extra hormones into my body, could've exaccerbated the breast cancer. I talked to all of the doctors/specialists and said that as soon as I'd finished doing round of IVF is when the lumps appeared. It's a known fact about the dangers of HRT with menopausal women and there have been links between HRT and breast cancer. I'm guessing it's kinda similar......something to think about in any event!!!

I'm off work for the next 6 weeks so I don't have to stress about it whilst undergoing treatment and am going to try and get healthy, keep doing my exercises and going for long walks and relax and try and stay calm as much as possible. Work has been absolutely wonderful and have said I can have as much time off as I like. I will see how I feel, I don't want to rush back to work.

I hope you are all well and I will keep you posted.

Fee xo

[Welsh Mummy]

Feebs04,
Hey gorgeous girl. Thank so much for coming and letting us know how you are. I have been praying that your treatment has been going well. You truly are inspirational. Even after everything you have been through you sound so positive. I'm glad Alex has been amazing, but then I'm sure that is why you fell in love with him.
It is very interesting what you say about IVF drugs, who really knows what they do to us. At my age they only recommend 3 cycles of Clomid before having a break as there have been links to cervical cancer. On the bright side if there is one, had you not been so in tune with your body and looking for every change 'just in case' meant that your lumps were noticed as soon as they appeared. I know since TTC I know my body so much better.
Im so glad that everything went well sweetie. One of the teachers I work with had a choice 10 years ago, living with the dread that the lumps may come back or a double mastectomy. She chose the mastectomy and is living a wonderful healthy life as a result of it. I'm guessing it must be quite difficult to use the computer at the moment so when you are feeling up to it, drop us a line.
Much love to you and Alex - always in my prayers.
Sarah

[Welsh Mummy]

Hi my Sweet,

Thank you so much for your kinds words of wisdom. Definitely makes me feel better. And thank you for the bucket load of positivity, because with the FS appointment in 14 days, i'm so going to need it.

Glad you're feeling good and for the last Clomid. So what's going to happen next? I've never taken it so don't quite know what goes on with that regards.

It is difficult having a DH who's always FIFO, but in a way it's good to because we get to spend sometime apart and do our own thing, but then I have either 3 or 6 days to spend with him when he's home (and not busy with work). Myself and my MIL have spoken to him about turning his phone of especially at night, but he said that he can't just in case there is an emergency and they need to get in contact with him. I say to him that what if there was an emergency? What can he do when he's back here in Perth and not on site? Surely they wouldn't want him to fly up to site on his days off? I don't know. I give up on that subject. .

Hope you are still positive girlie 😜. Will your DH be off when you go to FS? Not long now and you will know all you options.
What is next for us? I actually don't know, I always talk about having a plan but actually not sure where to next. I have gynae on Friday so when I get AMH results back I'm sure we will think of something then.
I think I would actually enjoy some time away from my DH. We spend all our non work time together, the most I do is go to a friends house after work on a Monday. The rest of the time I am being a good wifey. I know I should do more for myself but I don't like doing things on my own.
Much love to you.

AFM - on a 5 day juice reboots. Has anyone seen Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. Omg this chap from Sydney was seriously overweight so went to the US to do a juice fast. Along the way he met lots of people including a truckie who was very close to death. He got involved too and became an inspiration to heaps of other people. Watching their journey has made me have a serious rethink so here I am on day 2 of only eating and juicing veggies with a little bit of fruit. Have a look here if you are interested. www.jointhereboot.com

Much love to you all.
Sarah