Hi all.
I'm just looking for some support. I'm 29weeks and suffering from what I guess is prenatal depression.
I have anxiety and panic disorder and agoraphobia which was pre-existing prior to pregnancy, but I've definitely found the pregnancy has exacerbated my anxiety to an unmanageable extent. I used to be able to drive short distances, such as to the gym/library/local shops, however now I'm completely housebound.
I was doing well getting myself to appointments, but in the last three weeks I've missed an ultrasound, an OB check up and my gestational diabetes test, all because of my current anxiety level.
I feel like I'm suffocating. Whenever I look in the mirror and see my pregnant stomach, all I can think about is hurting myself. Rationally I know that I want to live and that I'll be ok, but there is an overwhelming urge in me to just end things so that I don't have to go through this pain for one more day. I have made an appointment with my GP for tomorrow but I know I won't be able to drive the 15 minutes there. I'm going to see if he can call me instead and do a phone appointment, because I really need help.
Prior to PG I was on pristiq, lexapro, seroquel, and Xanax as needed (which was rare, id take maybe .25mg once a month) but after becoming pg I weaned off all medication. I'm considering asking (more like begging) my doctor to put me on something, perhaps zoloft. I'm just terrified I'm going to hurt myself, I really feel like I'm going off the deep end. I can't eat because I have a fear of bodily functions and I'm terrified that any food is going to make me sick.
I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance. Does it get better? Will medication help? Is there any way to stop feeling this way??
I'm just looking for some support. I'm 29weeks and suffering from what I guess is prenatal depression.
I have anxiety and panic disorder and agoraphobia which was pre-existing prior to pregnancy, but I've definitely found the pregnancy has exacerbated my anxiety to an unmanageable extent. I used to be able to drive short distances, such as to the gym/library/local shops, however now I'm completely housebound.
I was doing well getting myself to appointments, but in the last three weeks I've missed an ultrasound, an OB check up and my gestational diabetes test, all because of my current anxiety level.
I feel like I'm suffocating. Whenever I look in the mirror and see my pregnant stomach, all I can think about is hurting myself. Rationally I know that I want to live and that I'll be ok, but there is an overwhelming urge in me to just end things so that I don't have to go through this pain for one more day. I have made an appointment with my GP for tomorrow but I know I won't be able to drive the 15 minutes there. I'm going to see if he can call me instead and do a phone appointment, because I really need help.
Prior to PG I was on pristiq, lexapro, seroquel, and Xanax as needed (which was rare, id take maybe .25mg once a month) but after becoming pg I weaned off all medication. I'm considering asking (more like begging) my doctor to put me on something, perhaps zoloft. I'm just terrified I'm going to hurt myself, I really feel like I'm going off the deep end. I can't eat because I have a fear of bodily functions and I'm terrified that any food is going to make me sick.
I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance. Does it get better? Will medication help? Is there any way to stop feeling this way??
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