Hospital stay with PD

[Angelinas_mummy]

I didnt realize that after the birth of my first daughter (now 15 months), I had very fast growing post natal depressive illness. It wasnt until I lost my second daughter in Sept last year, that it started to get really bad. I was so snappy to everyone and just didnt want to get out of bed and even had sickening thoughts while I was in the car by myself. When these thoughts got worse and actually started coming while my family was in the car, it was like a lightbulb switched on in my head. Im really depressed I need help. Luckily my hubby was off work for a while, as he had a motorbike accident a few weeks before. We went to the drs surgery but he wasnt open, I burst into uncontrollable crying knowing that something needed to be done now. Hubby asked if I wanted to go to the hospital and I knew I needed help so I agreed. I stayed in hospital for a week and a half and was put on 675mg of lithium (a mood stablizer) and 40mg of Paroxetine (an antidepressant). This medication means I cant have kids until I get better, they said between 2-5 yrs, as the effects on the unborn child arent very nice at all. Aside from that I am feeling better. Also they put into place 13 weeks free child care, which is great because Casey loves playing with all the other kids and really learns alot. I also have regular councilling sessions which help. So things are finally getting on track. If anybody has been in a similar situation or ask any questions pm me or leave a post here.

God bless
Hollie

[SweetSerenity]

Hi Hollie!!!

How are you sweetie??
I had the same terrifying thoughts while i was in the car by myself too, thats pretty much the times when i thought "I can escape it all now if i wanted to".
Well done to you for going to get help and treatment as i too know how hard it is at first to even admit you're suffering let alone getting help!
Your story im sure will help many women out there who may be suffering and are not sure!
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your other bub in sept! Must have been horrible for you and i can only imagine what you went through!
Big hugs to you (((((HUG)))))
You should be proud that you're getting through it! I know i am

Take care!

Love and Light, Nat xxx

[Angelinas_mummy]

Thanks Nat,
It has been a bit of a struggle but with the right medication we get through it. Can I ask, we you or are you on any meds??I have had a reaction to alot of the medication that is suitable for pregnancy. ttfn
Hollie
(huggles)

[SweetSerenity]

Hey Hollie
Im currently on Cipramil, i've been on it for the last 4 mths, i wasn't diagnosed until petey was 9mths old, i didn't really realise that i had it till then.
Which medication are you on currently??
Love Nat xxx

[Angelinas_mummy]

Gohh..I just realized that your the same age as me. Well Im on Lithium(mood stabilizer) and Aropax Paroxatine(antidepressant). They really send you wacko if you forget to take them.
Love Hollie

[Chickadee]

Hi Hollie,
Thanks for sharing your experiences on here. You never know how many other women you may help.

I had some of the same things going on in my head as you and Natalie. When driving down the freeway the concrete bridge abutments started to look too attractive I have a friend in the USA who had similar plans but they involved concrete trucks. I don't know what the attraction is with concrete.

I'm not on meds, so far am struggling without it. Probably it's irrational but I'm terrified of starting them and then being on them forever. A friend of mine in Uni was diagnosed as manic-depressive and she seemed to have so much trouble getting doses right, having to change meds, or really bad side effects (she hated lithium by the way).

Martha

[Angelinas_mummy]

I'm not on meds, so far am struggling without it. Probably it's irrational but I'm terrified of starting them and then being on them forever.
Martha

Being on medication is scary to start off with but I have found it has really helped.The lithium is a mood stabiliser which doesnt help me show my feelings,like when I know I would usually be excited or sad for some reason ,I just dont feel those anywhere near as strong as I felt before. Ive been on all sorts of treatments for a few years now and had bad reactions to some. Support from family and friends really help when trying new meds. Just be aware that you shop around for a really good Dr/phyc, one that you will be able to trust and that are good at their job. The last thing you need it to be misdiagnosed.
I hope you feel better soon.
Hugs to you
Hollie

[SweetSerenity]

Hey Hollie
Oh we are too
Yeah if i go a couple days w/out my meds my head feels so light headed and cloudy, i can't concentrate!
I'll pm you later today
love nat

[maybe1more]

HEy Hollie and Nat, this is a very interesting thread as i was reading another one about pnd, and i realised i could have it too!! I used to be on Zolof for depression when he brother passed away, then after i had my son, i felt like the walls were closing in on me, and that if i was "disapear" then no one would know and my son would be too young to remember me, i thought this was just a fact of being a mother, as i see mothers in the shopping centers with more then one child and they look calm and happy, so i thought i was just me, thinking these thoughts.
I supose im too scared to go on medication again, as i think im ok now, maybe it was just a rought patch i went thru.

[SweetSerenity]

Hey Jenny!
It could have been PND, everyone gets different cases and severity's of it.
Some people feel the need to be on meds to help cope, others can get through it and heal without and maybe you were the type who's getting through it without the meds, and you maybe still getting through it!
If you ever feel like a chat im happy to listen and im sure hollie is too!
I know what you mean when you look at mums in shopping centres and they're calm with two or three kids, i always feel like "am i the only mum who stresses"?????
Well anyway we're here if you need us...thanks for sharing with us
Love and light, Natalie xxx