3 years ago I had a traumatic labour and birth ending in a cesection. PND and PTSD for several months afterwards. Always knew the next baby, I would try for a VBAC, and if I succeeded I thought it would 'heal' me....
Well I did get my VBAC and I don't know what I felt afterwards... I felt numb.... nothing. I didn't feel like I expected to. I didn't feel bad about it, I just didn't feel good about it. If that makes sense. I just felt nothing.
So 3 years on I am STILL having trouble coming to terms with my csec, even though I've had a VBAC. I don't understand why. Why hasn't it 'healed' me.... I don't understand why I feel like this and why I wasn't overjoyed after my VBAC.
I was just wondering how other felt after their VBAC, how did you think you would feel, and did you feel like you expected.