I've had enough

[whatwasithinking]

I've had enough - I want out of this life - really I do.

I am sick of my oldest daughter being rude, disabediant and downright a little backchatting brat to me and everyone else around (inlcuding to strangers in the shops). I have tried every punishment imaginable including ignoring the behaviour.

I am sick of my youngest crying all the time - start to talk if you want something!

I am sick of being pregnant - I don't want to cope with another child.

I am sick of being treated as the doormat and slave in this house by everyone who lives here!

I am sick of being in tears at the mere thought of anyones voice.

If someone else so much as says to me how having 3 children will be worse I'm going to belt them in the F****** head - I mean it!!

Vent over - don't really feel any better.

[kiah]

[misskittyfantastico]

mmmm, crapola indeed. Sometimes I find that if I still feel no good after a vent, I need to vent more.

I have my listening ears on.

[damien's mum]

I'm not going to sit here and tell you what to do, coz i don't know what you should do. But you are not alone feeling like that, sometimes i just want to up and leave the life i have at the moment aswell...

Give yourself a break, give yourself some me time, and see how you feel.. It's normal to feel like this.. Things will get better and easier, just give them some time, and cut yourself some credit Girl!

Hope your feeling better soon... We are always here to vent on!

[whatwasithinking]

Thanks ladies.

I would love to give my self a break but what with working fulltime M-F - then doing all the crapola at home I just don't find the time (or energy for that matter). I'm "owed" a massage that I got for my wedding anniv last year and still haven't had a chance to use it and got another massage voucher when Bec was born - it was valid for 12mths and ran out before I could use it!. I have another voucher from my old work two weeks ago so that will be interesting as to when I get to use it - NOT holding my breath though!

My "husband" won't help and hasn't in the last 5yrs so why would now be any different - oh yeah actually he bathed the girls tonight - literally first time in both their lives - and that was only because his father is here for a visit!

Oh well I got myself into this mess I'll get myself out if it somehow!

[draught]

I too can't offer any solutions, but can say that I have felt similar feelings. Last year I was pregnant with two small people and an absent husband and was working....and there were days when I really felt i couldn't go on. I don't have any magic solutions on how to make it all better but can report that months down the track with a new baby in arms life is much better than it was.

Do you have a cleaner? Even if it is once a fortnight it will make a difference to the amount of work that you have to do.

Another suggestion from one working mother to another - take a half day off and leave your kids in care and go and have that massage. Work will cope (even the new job) and you will feel much better. You don't need to tell anyone why you are having the day or afternoon off - just go and be nice to yourself. Whether it is flex or leave or sick leave it will be worth it!

[the_original_duchess]

i dont work, im just a SAHM, so you got even more stress on you than i ahve on me, but i just wanted to say, i totally understand where your coming from. dh isalways at work, i ahev 2 little monsters(well they are monsters some days) and plus expecting another one and i think, god why did i get myself into this cr@p for.
it can be soooo unbelieveably hard.
(see my thread/vent in this section)
and if i hear another person say "and your having another one......" i think i'll slap them. im so sick of people telling me that, they dont think ive noticed?
sorry im turning your vent into mine lol.
but like i said i totally understan what your saying, adn if you need to talk, im here.
Danielle