Worry, worry, worry, worry.

[rosebaby]

I'm on a bit of a worrywart trip today, clearly!

But I was just thinking: I'm on my way up to my Dad's who lives quite a way away. By the time we get there, all the shops would be shut. What would we do if I accidentally forgot Jack's formula? Have any of you been in that situation? I wouldn't think that's it an entirely impossible scenario: things get left behind, often we are places where it's difficult to buy things.

I often get struck by just how dependent this little person is on me. I'm waiting for three cheques to come in at the moment, and if they don't come soon I'm going to be broke - and then how do I feed Jack? When we're in the bath together I sometimes get terrified that something will happen to me where I faint or become unconscious somehow - and then what would happen to Jack?? Even walking up the stairs to my apartment I have this vision where I fall over and get knocked out and no one finds Jack for ages - how scared would he be??

Oh I know, it's totally morbid and silly. But isn't it sometimes so scary to know that you're such a crucial part of this little person's life. I hope, hope, hope, hope I can always be everything I need to be for him.

[immarni]

I think its natural for mums to think the worst....that way we can be prepared for anything. I do exactly the same thing with the stairs....we have nearly 5 flights of stairs in our apartment complex that i have to go up and down everyday with ds. i'm always so paranoid i'm going to trip or slip or drop her or pass out....its neverending...i hadnt thought about the bath thing though, but i will now :P

Its a good thing to worry....makes you a good mum

[~mia&ryan~]

Its completely normal to have moments like this, I think we all do at some stage... It shows how much you care..