I'm on a bit of a worrywart trip today, clearly!
But I was just thinking: I'm on my way up to my Dad's who lives quite a way away. By the time we get there, all the shops would be shut. What would we do if I accidentally forgot Jack's formula? Have any of you been in that situation? I wouldn't think that's it an entirely impossible scenario: things get left behind, often we are places where it's difficult to buy things.
I often get struck by just how dependent this little person is on me. I'm waiting for three cheques to come in at the moment, and if they don't come soon I'm going to be broke - and then how do I feed Jack? When we're in the bath together I sometimes get terrified that something will happen to me where I faint or become unconscious somehow - and then what would happen to Jack?? Even walking up the stairs to my apartment I have this vision where I fall over and get knocked out and no one finds Jack for ages - how scared would he be??
Oh I know, it's totally morbid and silly. But isn't it sometimes so scary to know that you're such a crucial part of this little person's life. I hope, hope, hope, hope I can always be everything I need to be for him.