Do i have PND?? Please Read, Need Help

[lg084]

Hi Ladies

About 4 days ago I took a turn for the worst.

My life with my bubs was perfect, stable & we were happy!! I have never ever suffered any emotional or depressing problems & also do not have a family histort of mental disorders as such.

I woke last Friday, & somethings was different, I felt odd, glazy & just odd, I ponderd on with my day doing my usual houeshold & mummy duties. Later that evening I started experiencing waves of feelings I cld not cope with, I didnt know what to do with myself, I felt scared , my head was racing & it was something I had never ever felt before. Sorry ladies, very hard to explain physical & emotions when you not sure exacly urself what is going on inside you.

I went 2 sleep that night without a fuss, woke the next morning & started it all again, its now day 4 & I have had no relief my this. I have never suffered from anxiety, but when I get these waves of dred & confusion plus more, i get scared & dnt know what to so, they are violent butterflies & they come in waves, only thing to do is cry hard cuz thats all i feel will get me through it.

Visited the hospital on Monday, Doc took blood & checked for medical conditions that cld be causing this, in particular, an over-reacting thyroid, among other tests to match my systoms, all NEGATIVE!!!. The doc sent me home after some valium & a bag of fluid with a diagnosis of severe anxiety.

This confused me as I am & happy & in control person & NOTHING has triggered this sever change in myself that I cannot over come, its taking over me.

On Tues... I went to my GP for my postntal, had the horrid papsmear & also had an episode whilst in the room with her. She then gave me a sample back of Lexapro, however failed to tell me they were: a) an anti-depressant b) will make me feel worse before feeling better).

So went home, took half a Lexapro, one hour later I was in a right state, my head was a mess, total confusion, sweats, awful feelings inside (not harmul to me or anyone) but just feelings & waves I didnt know what to do with.

Went back to the GP (a diff one), told me Lexapro was the wrong thing to have & that I needed something to help me with anxiety. So got a presc for Valium (5mg).

I am now doubting whether what is happening to me is anxiety. I dnt feel right in my head, doesnt matter where I am, who is around, or what ppl say, I am getting these waves or severe emotion, they make me feel sick plus more. I just dnt know what to do with myself & its so hard to describe to someone IYKWIM. So frustrating.

My bub is staying with her dad whilst this is all happening, she is only 10 wks old & I really didnt know hormones cld make you feel you loosing it. It like my whole life has changes & i feel that bad I keep thinking I will never get better & this wont go away, even though I keep getting re-assured this. I just dnt feel it within myself, this is scary & I want to know what is happening. I have been booked in to see a Phycologist but I dnt get to see her for ages. My prob is here now & I want to get better & deal with it. I cant do anything with myself, its inerfering with my whole day (everyday).
Is this a form of PND? Will it pass? Is it hormonal. I just feel like I am loosing my mind.
Please help, i will be great to here any one else who has been through the same thing, or am i the only one.

My DD is 10 wks old already, why did this happen now & why me? Everything was fine. U never expect things like this to happen. We were so happy!!! I have my family, a good home & everything else.

I am confused cuz this just came on from nowhere!!! Just sprung on me!! Am i mental? Will things go back to how they were. I want 2 be a mum again, I want things to go back. Makes it worse when I think of my DD cuz I cant be with her now while I feel like this & while this is happening, I hope it passes so i can go back to enjoying my precious little angel, i love her so much & I tell her I am sorry all the time for feeling like this.
Thank you for taking the time to read my problem...

[damien's mum]

I know, lexapro, didn't work for me to start with, but my dr told me to keep taking half a tablet until i felt on track and then up to a whole one... Still going and it seems to work alot better for me now.. Although i still get slight panic attacks, which i have valpam for.

There is nothing WRONG with you, so to speak. There is alot of us on here that have it.. and i'm sure some will be able to help you out alot more than i can!

Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.. and send you a million

[lg084]

HI Damiens Mum,
I am very wary of the Lexapro now, & I want something that is going to make me feel right, I wld actually rather not taking anyting. I dnt think they are panic attacks, or are they? Oh god I just know know, whatever is happening its horrible.

[damien's mum]

I'm sorry that i can't help you, but i'm going bump this up in the hope that someone can hun!

[motherlylove]

louise hugs for u hope it all sorts it self out soon for you

[JenNT]

yes sounds like PND,mine started out of the blue when my bub was 6 months but i did nothing until he was 1.Silly me.
I was given a thorough session with my GP and he diagnosed PND and prescribed me Zoloft at 1/2 tab for 3 days then up to full tab for a month,then it was upped in mg. I felt like tihs for 2 weeks until the tabs kicked in but boy did i notice a difference then. Ihave heaps more enthuasism and energy and feel like my old self again but a better version
Seek help and persevere,you will get better, you are not mental.You are overwhelmed with hormones thats all.

[damien's mum]

Thanks girls, i think we need to help as much as we can, even if we keep bumping this up for people to see!

[lg084]

HI Ladies

Thanks for all the kind words, I have woken this morning feeling a little better. I think its gradually waering off each day which is what my doc said. The valium is good & is knocking the edge off. I cant wait to feel myself again. I miss my baby so much. Why do us woman have to go through this, hormones can do they strangest things.
The reason i ask if its PND is cuz I am not exhaused, miserable or in the dumps, I am getting this wave of feeling that paraliss me & I cant do anything while its happening, I am getting this througout the entire day & only getting a break from it when I am asleep. (which is not a prob) but as soon as a wake it starts all over again.

Like i said, I am getting beta by the day & I am just taking it easy. I think its a conbinaiton of going to hard for the past 10 wks (as I am a single mum) & a case of hormones as I have felt on top of the world since the birth, & I guess @ some stage our bods have to respond of wat has happended.
PND can apparently come in many forms, & I think I have a case of Post Natal Anxiety which my doc says is very common. Lets hope it dnt stick around to send me mad.....
Thanks Ladies, Great Help
LG