ok i dont really no where this goes so i am just going to put it here.
i have been reading some threads and everyone is talking about the activitys they do with there kids and all the wonderful times that they have with there children i think that is great i just wish that i had that. the problem that has been playing on my mind is that my mum was and is very i guess courier minded and when i was a month old she sent me off to family day care 5 days a week all day , i had been going there all my through my childhood and then when i started school and was there before and after school untill i started high school and dont get me wrong i love my day care parents i think of them as my second family but still i feel that i was an accident and that my mum didnt really want me and i am sort of bitter towards her about it, i love her and i know she loves me but i have only realised lately that this is really making me depressed.
i dont know what i am looking for just some to accually listen i guess because i would never think of telling my mum it would break her heart. it doesnt help that i have other issues and this just adds to the pile