I have so much going through my mind, I have no-one I can speak to & it's really doing my head in.
I have a DH & 10mth DS & have just found out if pregnant however, it is the result of an affair which has been going on for some time. I'm so torn because I really DO love my DH although we have some pretty big problems & I really DO love the person I'm having an affair with & it's mutual.
I can't tell my husband... if I decide to tell him until I know for sure what I'm going to do.
I have the full support of the other man no matter what my final decision is but my heart is breaking just thinking about all the possibilities that could unfold.
I feel like I need to face the concequences for my actions head on & confess all to DH & let him be involved in the decision making process but I'm scared that he'll leave me & his DS... and possibly another baby.
I know that I would love both children unconditionally & do the very best I possibly could for them but I don't want to shatter my DH by telling him the truth.
Am I being so unrealistic to think that DH would stick by me & have this baby with me????
I have made an appointment to have a termination but don't know if I can go through with it. If I do, everything goes back to "normal" & If I don't I could struggle financially for the rest of my life & then I might not be able to give my child or future children as good a life as they deserve.
I'm torn & feeling very very alone & don't know what to do.
Thanks for listening.