So dp and I are not getting on at all. They say the first year of a babies life is the hardest. DS2 is 5 months this week. DS1 is 9.5 (diff dad). We have been together for nearly 7 yrs and had major trouble conceiving.
Well the past couple of months have been hell. I've been keeping a private journal (written) at home about what has been going on.
He contributes nothing financially except $150 a week towards bills. As he puts it it's my (as in me) house so it's your problem to pay for everything and I mean everything. He hasn't contributed 1cent to DS2 medical bills since he was born nor does he pay for any of his health insurance or cell care payments.
We had a deal that when I was off work for the agreed amount of time (1 year) that he would contribute substantially more then what he currently was. I'm still on paid leave for another 6 wks then I'll have no income except for a small amount of family tax benefit.
A nail in the coffin was last night. We had a joint FB and he has locked me out of it now and changed the password and taken my name off it and it only his. He has also changed the email account password so I'm unable to reset via there.
He comes home from work and constantly says that all I do as a mum is sit on my **** and watch tv which is far from the truth. I don't watch much tv at all anymore apart from the news. The house and yard are massive and I spend a lot of time cleaning up inside and major works in the garden aswell.
He shows very little interest in DS1 and now DS2. Doesn't feed him dinner at night rarely does a nappy, his idea of playing with him is putting him in his rocker chair while he surfs the internet watching you tube videos.
He pretends to his mates that he's a great dad when some of the wives have picked up that in fact he's a lazy pig who only cares about himself and no one else.
Apparently I'm just a dirty pig w@@@@ c@@@. Yes they are the names he has used on me and that I'm useless.
So I'm not feeling the best about life at all.
I've actually asked him to pack his bags and leave the house and to get his own place but he has refused. The words used there are well we've got a f'in kid together now so your f'in stuck with me.
All I want to do is wake up from this nightmare. I've already lived through an abusive marriage and survived and now it seems it is all going to happen all over again but this time he isn't going to leave.