I'm 40+3 with number 2, due to be induced in two days and the fear I've had all pregnancy of dying whilst giving birth is sky rocketing. I am getting so anxious.
Honestly it isn't even fear for myself, it's for leaving behind my 1st born and newborn with no mum. The thought of them being in the care of my ex husband makes me feel physically ill (long story but he's not genetically their dad and NOT a good person or father to put it very nicely). He currently lives in a dif state and has very little do with us but if I was out of the picture who knows what he would try?
I know the stats for the maternal death are pretty low in australia but I'm still just so scared. Tbh ever since I've become a mum I've been petrified of dying and leaving my child behind. Is that normal?
It's just even worse now I'm pregnant again and close to delivery And I think my anxiety is what is preventing labor from starting on its own.
Has anyone else felt this way? How did you overcome it?
Sorry for asking such a morbid question but I just felt putting it out there into the universe might help in some way.