hello ladies, I'm checking back in at the tail-end of my 2ww. I'm 12dp3dt and finally caved and did a pregnancy test on First Response. It was a BFN It's still 3 days before my blood test but I'm feeling devastated. I wish I didn't test...ignorance really is bliss. A tiny bit of me still holds out hope that I could still get a positive but I can't shake the funk I'm in right now. I thought I was mentally prepared for whatever the result but realise now I was just deluding myself. It's hard. It's much harder getting a BFN on an IVF cycle than a natural cycle. I didn't realise how much hope I invested into this cycle, even though statistically I know it takes a few tries on IVF. I was really hoping I could be first-time lucky. To all you superwomen out there who have been through this more than once, I really salute you. The only silver lining that comforts me right now is that the other egg they managed to retrieve made it to frozen embryo stage, so I have one more go before I have to undergo the full treatment again. This is so much harder than I thought.