..And I feel lost. I feel like I have lost myself since becoming a mum to my 2nd baby. I want to burst into tears almost every hour and I just feel hopeless like nothing will ever get better. Part of me knows it can and it most likely will but it feels so far away. My partner says I was the same when I had my son; always stressing and crying often but I just don't remember those early days and it being this hard! I miss my eldest, he is coping better with the change better than me.
The sleep deprivation is hard.. And when I try to nap during the day I just can't. Like my body refuses to sleep until it's night time, when I'm not going to get the sleep I need.
My partner has been my only support I've wanted the last 2 weeks but he will be back at work next week and I am dreading it badly, I feel like I'll just spend the day in tears and nothing around the house will ever get done.
Just wish time would speed up so it can get better...