@Charlie74 :-) you are amazing and strong and wonderful and yes, its possible to be all that and be having a meltdown at the same time. I love mindfulness meditation. I dont do it coz im a d i c k h e a d and j cant sit still (which is why i need to practise it). I have a few cds for pain management mindfulness and i totally am sold on it. I read lots of neuroscience books about how it changes the structure of your brain and it can be seen on an MRI. So i know it works. Im hoping one day I'll be so good at it that if my limbs get chopped off, I'll be like "pain is just a sensation, acknowledge it as such and move on". I'll be like that buddhist monk that set himself on fire and didnt flinch. Just have to put the disc in the cd player first though. Journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.
Its a mad a r s e world of advertising and stupid memes n stuff we live in, where the world and society seems to tell us constantly to think positive, look on the brightside, snap out of it etc.. Has the world forgotten that humans arent rational? We are emotional creatures that react and respond to the things that happen to us. Since when is it not ok to feel negative emotions which are in proportion to our circumstances?
These days, whenever people have that "look on the bright side" attitude, it just reminds me of the monty python, life of brian, crucifixion scene. You know, yeah maybe there is a bright side but there's a time and a place for it and its not immediately after experiencing something shocking and difficult.
Im so glad the meditation has helped and its good that you and dh are so close and supporting each other.
Im gonna start my own advertising campaign and make memes about "when sad stuff happens, its ok to feel sad" and "dont try not to feel stuff, feel it and acknowledge its a feeling" -like der!
I also love what you said about acknowledging that thoughts are just that. Thoughts arent facts or predictions destined to become true. Im stealing that for my imaginary campaign. I'll give you royalties on all the imaginary money I'll make.