@pingc383 so sorry you are feeling this way. I totally get that, I have serious moments of depression from all of this and just don't like life when it doesn't work out hopefully the doctor can help you a bit. Big hugs, it's just not a nice journey this!
And in saying that, sadly my two beans aren't going to make it my bloods have come back today at 19! Of course the nurse was all "oh repeat on Monday, sometimes it can be a late implanter etc etc" but of course I know it's not cause I've been testing positive since 5dp transfer. So yet another chemical for me just for interest, here is this mornings test (lighter so was expecting a low result). I can't believe the lines FRER pulls sometimes.