Thanks for the lovely support ladies, validation that it's normal helps a lot. I don't think taking something like Valium is an option as I'm breastfeeding so think I just need to do my best to ride it out. I'm not on the pill either. I'm not having panic attacks, just feeling really down and kinda permanently panicky inside, if that makes sense. On top of that I think ds2 is having a growth spurt so has been waking more the past week which of course is stressing me out as I'm worrying that what I'm doing with him during the day for sleeps is making our nights worse. I just really hate all of this and feel like I'm doing everything wrong.