tuxcat i feel like you in the 'happy to swap my eggs" thing. After i had my mini mental breakdown, when i thought about cycling again with my own eggs, id ugly cry and thjnk, "no, no, no, please dont make me do that again" and when i thought about doing DE instead, i just felt hopeful and excited. So, in the end, i didnt really need to get advice, second opinions, googling obsessively etc... i just used my emotions as a guide. If i had have seen wazza and he said, "you can do more own egg cycles" i would have been upset, i think. Weird but true because i just couldnt handle doing another tww with less than 5% chance and getting 1 egg to transfer in the end, i might as well just have sex.
I have a cold and my bro & sis tabby kittens came in and curled up wirh me all morning. I dont know how they know when you're feeling down, but i swear they do. Mmmm....warm kitten fur to snuggle into. Sooo calming and theraputic.