I'll be home all day today hon so if you need someone to talk to I'll be popping in and out of the forum all day.
I can understand that you're not feeling hopeful and as you already know, I've been in your position before and I know how distressing all this waiting and retesting can be. Please just know that we are all behind you and hoping for a positive outcome.
I am just going to cross everything for you and pray for a miracle. You will be in my thoughts