@GucciDahling, thank you for that honest heartfelt post.
For my part, I'm not scared of terrorism. It's statistically so unlikely. Horrible when it does happen of course - but thankfully very unlikely to happen. Like that plane fuselage falling out of the sky in Donnie Darko.
What is a bigger threat for me, and what I am increasingly worried about for me and my family, is what seems to be the upswing in bigotry and intolerance generally.
I'm more afraid of bigots than terrorists.