I am due end of October and am finally sitting down with my boss this week to chat about my maternity leave arrangements and sort out some dates, but I have mixed feelings right now and maybe some outsiders perspective/ advice would help me.
I have worked for a small family owned business for almost five years. In my role I am the only person employed full time and there is one person who works casually as they are studying. My boss' wife works in reception but really she turns up and leaves whenever she feels like. Because of this it gets very stressful and I have to pick up the slack and take on a lot of admin work. I rarely take annual/ sick leave because when I do it feel like the place falls apart and I come back to 10 x more work than when I was last in. I usually need to give him weeks of notice and constant reminders if I ever take a day of leave. My boss is easily irritable and is not an easy person to work for. I have asked repeatedly to sit down and discuss my maternity leave and finally this week he said we are able to talk about it. I don't even now if I will be paid when I'm on maternity leave because it's such a a small business, and he is so difficult to approach.
Originally when i told my boss that I was pregnant I told him I was thinking about taking 12 months off. Lately work has been chaotic and stressful and not a nice environment to be in (mostly because he's realised that I wont be there much longer). I am really considering just resigning and finishing up the date that I would start mat leave. I've been unhappy for a while and I feel like this is my chance to get out of there. I would love to take a couple of years off work to spend with my child and I know that with all the money I have been putting away and my partners income that this could work out for us.
I do not want to go back full time after my baby and I'm thinking that if I do only return as casual then is there really any need to go on mat leave?
What if at the end of 12 months I'm not ready to go back to work, but they are still expecting me to?
Am I better off to resign and get my large annual leave payout (12 weeks worth ) and take life as it comes??
I'm sorry I feel like I've been rambling but I'm so lost!!