I think I've just been hit by bad PMT hormones at the same time as an extended period of near isolation. Last few weeks I've had no contact with anyone but my kids and Dp or random pleasantries with strangers in shops or occasionally bumping into school mums I don't really know. I feel like I'm living in a fish bowl. My world is so tiny and yet I can see that there is this big world out there outside of my reach. Before kids in my 20's I lived in a few different countries, did heaps of different jobs, heaps of house shares with all sorts of different people. Then I had kids and moved to Australia and suburbs. It's all been going downhill for me mentally. I don't really want to live here but stuck as kids are Aussie. I've got ideas on pulling myself out of this hole but it's hard to see them with this big black cloud of hormones hanging over me. I think I've always been prone to moods that take over. And pretty positive I've had pnd. But some of the outlets I had aren't available. I can't just spend time roaming the city, or mediate or do yoga for hours cus I'm always on duty as mum. Right now my 2 year old is asleep on me and my hand is really sore and this nap is so late I know she won't go to bed until 9.
1st world problems