not being regular doesn't exactly help me relax about it all. I end up waiting to see if I'm due to get AF or if I'm ovulating. Today is when I'm due from that first period but I haven't had an signs so I'm thinking the second one reset me. I've had a very slight cramp type feeling on my left side and a higher sex drive so that makes me feel like I'm ovulating. Then again I've constantly reading about ovulating I worry I'm reading signs and then thinking I have them out of hope. It's good I am ovulating but then I'm sad I probably haven't in the last 4 weeks so i can't be pregnant. My parter wanted to do a test a month after the implanon was removed but I don't want to be disappointed so I said let's wait til 4 weeks after the second period. I had my period 2 weeks after the first so I doubt I ovulated but we still "tried" because we can't go long without it. So I still have hope that somehow we will get pregnant the first month even though I know it's ridiculous with those circumstances.
Im sorry for going on and on. This is a glimpse into my head.