Thanks girls, nice to know you are all there for me. Sometimes it gets so lonely doing all this sh!t my sister is staying with me at the moment. Single mum- well divorced so part time mum- and all she can say to me is why would you want kids they are so annoying. Im almost ready to punch her in her face for total lack of sensitivity at this present time. She just doesnt understand what has gone into our baby quest.
I will be emailing Dr Matebese to ask wtf went so wring. Our donor was young. I now wish we didnt do the pgd as more would have made it but then they could have transferred the 2 abnormal ones and it would have lead to a m/c so its hard to think that way. It is what it is i guess and just bad luck. I did the kitchen sink including pred, neupogen, clexane and 2 intralipids prior.
Donor embryo isnt out of the question but im fighting in my head whether to have a child with no genetic match or try to have a child with at least my dh dna. Im just not sure what a child would be happier with ?!!! Maybe im over thinking. Thanks again girls for listening and cyber hugging. @Bradders good luck with your BT xx