I'm feeling really down tonight. I'm in so much pain. Seven years ago I hurt my lower back. I've been in pain ever since. I've had some good days but most days I am in pain. I don't let it stop me I push myself to do everything and just deal with it. I had surgery in 2011 which helped marginally. I usually go through cycles of manageable pain and then flares which would last 1-2 months then settle again.
Since I got pregnant (November 2014) I have been in constant pain. Because of my lower back problems I developed symphysis pubis dysfunction in my first trimester which got progressively worse. Things settled a bit after DD was born (emergency c-sect) but a few months in the pubic pain flared up and my pelvis ended up separating severely in February and I've been diagnosed on MRI with severe osteitis pubis with a 1-2 year recovery timeframe. Because of my pelvic instability with the osteitis pubis I've had 6 months of constant severe lower back pain. I am at the point that I can barely walk because of the osteitis pubis and can't sit down because of my back pain. It's intolerable. I've been deemed eligible for a disability permit last week 😔
I see a pain specialist and 2 weeks ago had a test nerve block done which seemed to help so I will go in for a procedure called a neurotomy but surgeon is on leave for a few weeks so it'll be at least a month away.
There's no point to this post. I really just needed to write it down and acknowledge how much I'm struggling with my pain. If there are any other hubbers dealing with chronic pain I am shedding tears for you too. This is one of the worst things to experience and I find most people don't understand how f$@!ing unrelenting it is. I just wish I could be pain free it is so unfair.
Please don't suggest to me I need chiro, or physio, or tens, or acupuncture, or traction, or ultrasound, or Pilates, or hydrotherapy (you get my drift) I've been there done it all 😁