Ok, so DH and I have been ttc for a little while now, and although I'm not pregnant this month I had so much cramping, pains and nausea, I was convinced that I was! And while I was extremely happy, I also felt like I was on a complete rollarcoaster of emotions! There were times when I would be awake at 3 in the morning thinking I change my mind I don't want this I want to go back, I don't want anything to change, I've ruined our marriage because we'll never be this close again etc etc. I've struggled with depression and anxiety in the past too and I worry I have a bigger risk of pnd. I don't want to become someone who can't shower or look after myself starting out the window without being able to go outside feeling depressed and full of regret.
There were also times (most times) that I was over the moon, don't get me wrong. And my little freak outs aren't enough to stop us from continuing to ttc, we were devastated to see those . We both know we want a big family, and want to start young (we are young 20s). I was just wondering if anyone else has felt this way, and what happens to those fears throughout your pregnancy, or once your baby is born? i would love to hear your open and honest thoughts / experiences