Im absolutely exhausted. DH is overseas and this weekend was a complete battle with my 4 on my own. I'm trying so hard to implement rules that cater for the varying ages, but I'm finding I'm expecting a lot of my 9 year old. I need her help and she's still a child.
This evening I wore bub while I prepped dinner. He's usually awake again at 5pm so when he stirred, I naturally took him out and sat him on my lap while we ate. He'll go back to sleep at 6.30. So I do our usual bath feed bed and he's not asleep. I pat for a good hour and he'll sleep but wake the moment I stop. Fast forward an hour later he's completely wired and chatting to the evaporative cooling vent and ceiling fan. I figure he'll sleep but he cries so I offer boob again, burp, check his hip brace, nappy, clothing etc and he's all good. I pat while he's screaming for half an hour and I had enough so I left him. He screamed blue murder for 10 mins and I did not go to him. He fell asleep.
I feel absolutely dreadful.