I'm sorry if this post doesn't make much sense, as I am very tired from many nights of very little sleep...
My DS has always been a night owl, right from birth he would wake up at any odd hour and "party". If you haven't had one of these types of babies you will never understand just how immensely draining it is.
It's been an incredibly rocky road. I think depression has taken a hold of me, as I am but a shadow of my former self. My DS also cried since birth. A lot.
I have an older child, age 7, am a single mum and was one year into a science degree when I fell pregnant, a degree which I absolutely can't take any more time off from.
But I'm so tired. I have to stay up late every night to tidy up my massive house and do my studies, and then... DS will suckle on my breasts all night long, with the worst part being that he is then up at 5.30am, ready to rock and roll.
I love him so dearly, but I have fallen into a giant pit of negativity and resentment.
I am so tired.
DS is almost 19 months old and I would like to slowly start to wean him from the breast. I already tried night weaning him twice since he was about 15 months old, but this backfired when he screamed for four hours straight as I held him in my arms and sang to him.
I would like to know how to wean my child in a gentle and age appropriate way. I don't enjoy breastfeeding a lot of the time now, and my nipples get very sore at night, causing me to be cranky and irritable. But I don't know how to stop!!
With my first baby everything was so smooth, so natural. Nights, well she was weaned within two or three. Days, we naturally reduced the feeds one by one. But I can't imagine this boy taking "No" for an answer. He pulls at my top whether at home or in public, taking out my breast and sometimes suckling while I carry him. Thankfully I live in a very supportive community where nobody judges me for this. But for myself, my sleep and my sanity, I would like to begin to wean!!
How can I achieve this? Please help 😞