@Balloune sorry to hear, I think a day to your self is exactly what you need.
I am not sure that the disappointment ever goes away, or if you can ever be fully relaxed - I know I can't - not when it's something you want more than anything. It sucks.
have a relaxing day, I hope you feel better soon xo. Baby dust to you and fingers crossed cycle 7 is the month for you! Xx