This is my first post. I'm 38, sadly had a miscarriage last year and now pregnant again at almost 12 weeks.
I'm concerned about my pregnancy. My husband and I have just had a big blowout after a counselling session wherein I told him I was no longer prepared to deal with his jealousy issues and interference from his family. The thing is, our relationship has been better than ever lately (in general), and I truly love the man, but after another ridiculous round of unfounded accusations last weekend I decided I can no longer tolerate it for my sake or for the sake of our future child who should not have to grow up thinking this is normal behaviour.
When he gets angry he makes no sense at all and has basically said once things settle down I will have to make a decision. That some people just aren't meant for marriage. I have stood by this man through a hell of a lot and been faithful the whole time. If that isn't what marriage is about then I have no idea.
But I digress. I am trying very hard to stay calm, but the reality of the prospect of raising this child with separated parents and the financial burden that will be is pretty dismal. The job market sucks and despite my experience and education I am not paid at all what I should be, yet earn the majority of our household income. It was going to be hard enough taking time off work after I give birth with just him working, but now that's all up in the air. Don't get me wrong. He's a good man and I don't think he's the sort of man who would abandon us. Then again, he inherited his ranting, jealousy and alcohol problem from his father who abandoned him. One big difference is he quit drinking for me a several years ago now which has been a massive and important step for him. Obviously he still has a lot of issues.
So there's a storm brewing within me and my womb is feeling very disturbed. This is a long story I failed to make short, but I guess I am hoping for some kind words but not without some truth about how stress can really affect your pregnancy. I am worried something is wrong. Any thoughts?