@VioletMay I'm so sorry! I remember so clearly the first few weeks after losing Indigo and I wasn't sleeping, crying half the night and dreaming I was still pregnant. It was so horrible! Please know it does get better, you won't ever forget your precious Poppy but you will heal a little and sleep again.
Luckily for me I did have some people who understood how I was feeling. My mum lost a son a long time ago to SIDS and my older half sister lost twins at 24 weeks about 10 years ago. The both live interstate so it was only over the phone I could talk to them but it did help a little.
Apart from them I only had DH aswell, he was good but definitely tried blocking out the pain I think.
I'm glad I can help by telling you that you will get through it and I understand how you are feeling. I have joined a few groups etc of people in the same situation as I feel it helps me heal knowing I'm not alone.
I am only 7 weeks pregnant, so very early but will be going to the big women's hospital for this pregnancy and they will be monitoring me very closely. As we don't know what happened to Indigo I don't know how they know what to look out for but I'm hoping everything is fine with this little baby.
When are you looking at doing your last FET?xx