I am quite aware that I don't own her. You are also correct, she is very calm and collected. Very rational.
Sexualising the situation was mentioned earlier and I did admit that perhaps I am doing just this. But upon thinking about it more I don't believe that's the case. Or perhaps it only a part of it.
What I am feeling more is protectiveness. The need to protect her from anything bad happening. I am the reason medically that we need IVF. There is nothing wrong with her. I feel really guilty about this.
This whole thing just doesn't make sense which is why I'm hear talking.
Thanks for your input :-)