This I what I am fearing and I am aware of its implications.
I don't want to have these thoughts.
The nurses present were great. No problems.
I had a problem with the male. I won't name names nor the clinic. They have all been great.
The problem here is all me.
I am not and have never been the controlling type. I do however have a need to know what's going on, even if I have no real say in it, I am more comfortable just knowing.
If I were able to rationalise these feelings and put them in the box they should be in, then I would not have even posted.
I am afraid of the idea that you may be right though. That's why I'm asking. I may be sexualising this whole thing.
I am scared. I am not this person.