I have two beautiful boys. When I found out number two was a boy I did cry and then immediately felt guilty and awful. Once he was born, happy healthy and gorgeous those thoughts disapeared. Now they are coming back. In the last month I've had two Friends and a family member announce they are having a girl after having had two boys! I get really sad and emotional and irritated, I think I'm losing it, why can't I just be happy for them! I keep thinking what if that could be me? Why do I feel this way when I'm blessed to have such lovely sons.