So I'm one of these people who always decides to 'do better next time'. For childbirth I interpreted that as being calm, zen and in control like the the women who put their birth on YouTube.
Once again it didn't turn out that way. I went from 5cm dilated to fully dilated in 20 minutes. During those 20 minutes I repeatedly said I couldn't do this, begged my husband to make it stop, and made them call in the poor anaesthetist at that ungodly hour, even though I knew it was going to too late for an epi by the time he arrived.
Because of those bloody YouTube videos I have it in my head that every other woman is cool, calm and collected and much better than me at this.
Did anyone else just lose their mind during labour? Or am I going to regret asking this question? 😬