Yep.. well and truly thought we were done. I was so content with our family of 5.
DH was going in to get the snip. He's been putting it off and last week told me that right now he is definitely finished, but he can't say how he will feel in 5 years time... all our kids will be at school, what if we decide we want another. He wants to do something less permanent, until he is 110% sure.
Oh my gosh. I didn't realise how much I don't want to be done. I love babies. I hate pregnancy. I love parenting. I love being a busy stay at home mum (though of course there are moments I complain/cry/scream!)
Hubby said I was grinning ear to ear with a spark in my eye when he told me his thoughts. He still says he definitely doesn't want another now! I never understood the pressure from family, to not have anymore, until now. They all assume we are totally done (we may have said this ourselves though, lol) I told my dad that DH is not getting vasectomy and his response just made me sad. I always thought my parents would be supportive.
My heart says, more babies.
My mind says, no, wait and see. Let hubby finish his degree. Upgrade the car to one we want without being under financial strain to do so. In 3 & a half years all our kids will be at preschool/school, so either we could decide to go again, or not. And just enjoy our kids growing up.
I don't really know the point of this post, I just had to put it down somewhere. I was so sure we were done because the option was taken away from us by DH getting the snip, and I was happy with that. But now that it's a possibility, I am so excited about having more and becoming a family of 6/7.