Just wondering if I am just painfully socially anxious and introverted or if this is a slight variation of what could be considered normal.
I commented to DP tonight that when all his shifts are stacked together, plus when he does a 24 hour job (casually) before he full-time job I feel very alone. He said it is because I only have a small network of friends and he wishes I had a bigger network of friends.
Example of DP weeks
For example he has worked everyday (incl night shifts) for 8 days and has another night shift tonight), plus he is studying for an exam in July. Next week he has Wed and Thurs off, but will probably be studying one of those days away from home. Oh and he has just picked up another job which will be one day a week working from home and once a month onsite .
I don't have a lot of friends. When my ex and I split up I found out someone kept being my friend to report back to my ex. I didn't realise until about 4 years later. I take a lot to trust people easily because of this. I find the school Mum's brutal and for the most part awful.
I have a few great friends who are interstate, so I talk to them online. I have a couple of friends who are parents of my DDs friends. Although they have been away. Another friend never does anything on the weekends as she spends time with her kids, we usually have coffee during school hours.
I feel like the pressure is on at the moment. Uni, high school picking (ex says he is too busy), DD with learning issues that are being picked up in yr 6......etc etc etc
Sorry for the sob story