Thanks everyone for your thoughts. DS has gone to sleep, just waiting until I can ring for the results which is not until after 2pm. I just cleaned the kitchen to pass the time and the clock has barely moved!
@Blossom and those that have miscarried I can't say from my point of view that getting the 'take home baby' helped grieve the losses, if anything it made it worse because DS helps me imagine what they would/ could have been like. It gets bearable with time but it's not without pain. I don't discuss it in 'real life' except that I have had counselling after the first loss which really helped me going forward.