My name is Bec, I'm 29 and 14 weeks with my first baby. Extremely excited about becoming a Mum, have a loving partner & am very fortunate to have a secure future. However for some reason, I just feel so lost & alone - which I can't make sense of. I've always been career driven, and started a new job (that I hate) in Feb so that I could be close to my partner. Two weeks later, I got pregnant and after working my way up in an industry I love, now have a job that I have to resign from, don't qualify for maternity leave & don't have anything to go back to after I have had the Bub. I feel as though I'm losing my identity and sense of purpose, which I know sounds crazy. I have a history of depression, and I worry about being a full time stay at home mum will do for my mental health. I just feel so lost, am constantly crying and just can't focus on the positives. I can't wait to be a Mum, and want to stay home for 12 months or so - but I'm just so worried about the future being so out of control.