I just need to have a whinge/ get some advice from those who have been there before. Sorry this will be long.
Some of you may be familiar with my story. I struggled to establish breastfeeding with my 3yo and quickly gave up and put her on formula.
I was so desperate to get it right this time around. I had my DD2 3 weeks ago and before hand posted many threads here asking a million questions and thanks to all of you I was able to establish breastfeeding successfully this time around.
In hospital DD was a little breastfeeding champ. She had a great latch and quickly picked up weight, I had very little pain, everything seemed to be going well.
Since we've gotten home things have gotten progressively worse. I have really intense nipple pain and large breasts that are cumbersome to position DD on. It got so bad that I had an LC come out and she was very helpful and gave me a lot of info and showed me how to attach DD properly but I just feel like it's not getting easier. Everytime I call her to follow up she keeps saying it will get easier if I follow the correct latch but it's just not happening.
The nipple pain is still there. I have to use both hands to breastfeed as I need one hand to hold DD and the other to hold my breast off her face so it doesn't suffocate her, and squish the nipple so it fits in her mouth. I also have major anxiety about feeding in public as I need to see what I'm doing and how I'm positioning my breasts/ hands and I can't use a cover so I feel like I can't leave the house.
I'm getting to the end of my rope. In the hospital I had visions of breastfeeding for 2 years but now I'm struggling, I can't imagine getting to six months. I'm so close to throwing in the towel. I just want to put her on formula so DH can feed her overnight and I can actually get some sleep and give my nipples a break.
I don't really know the point of this post. Just hoping someone here has some words of wisdom for me to get me through. Today was my first day on my own with both kids as DH went back to work and it's been so hard. All I can think of is putting her on the bottle to make life easier.