Hi guys, I'm not sure if this is the right area to put this question. But I have a 10 month old and am considering getting pregnant again with our second. But I'm in two minds about it.
My first is still not sleeping through, needs to be held to sleep and is very unsettled sleeper. I just can't imagine being this tired anyway and being pregnant which makes you more tired, and then on to havin a newborn. It is already hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel with this no sleep thing, I am exhausted. Also, I am worried if I get pregnant now, my first will only be 19 months old when number 2 is born. He will still be so young and I'm scared he will need all his mummy's time still, I want to be there for him as much as he needs and let him be my baby for as long as possible, I don't want to push him to grow up too quick or be independent of me too early. I'm not sure if this is right thinking in the fact that I won't be able to spend as much time with him when I have another baby, but I'm just afraid of not being as good a mum to him, and having our bond lessen.
But also on the other hand, I have such a longing for another baby. I just love the baby stage despite lack of sleep. And also I'd love for my first bubs to be close to his sibling in age because I think this will make their relationship close and really good friends.
In a way I'm scared to have two kids, wondering if I'll be able to give them both the time they need (especially because at the moment, my little bubs deserves my very best always and I give my everything to him, he is my greatest importance in my decision making right now, he comes first at the moment). But at the same time, I'm just so excited to extend our little family. In the end we want a big family of five kids and I want to move towards that, but only at the right time for my bubba right now. And I want to make sure I can cope I just don't know what to expect with two kids so can't even imagine what it will be like.
Any thoughts guys?