Anyone who has been through a late term loss got any magical tips or tricks to make ultrasounds not the most horrific experience imaginable? About to head to the hospital where I learnt my daughter had died to have my 20 week scan.
I should be excited to see them and confirm my gut feeling that my son is getting a little brother. I am not excited. I am scared, nauseous, wishing I didn't have to go, regretting telling my son he could come, worried there will be no heartbeat, worried that I will feel nothing for this baby even if everything is going well. As messed up as it sounds, right now I just feel like I would prefer my daughter back to this baby. God I hope they don't keep me waiting, I just want it over with.