Goodness @Tahli it's all systems go! What an amazing opportunity & I just bet you're going to get your take home bub!
Hmmmm. I'm not in a great place. All week has been about DSS & DH & his ex. Affidavits, court documents, lots of nastiness, & a beautiful little boy crying his eyes out in my arms this evening...
And I'm finding that today's emotion is jealousy. I just want a baby so desperately that I'm jealous of everyone - DHs ex, people who are cycling, people doing DE, anyone with a child - you name it I'm jealous of them :-(. I just feel like I'm doing nothing & I'm so torn because I know I'm likely too old to have a pregnancy of my own, but I don't know whether I should be doing some investigations like the hysteroscopy that I cancelled or a lap to look for silent endo etc - I'm so phobic of hospitals that I just won't do it & I get so upset that I could have something wrong but I'll never know.
I don't know what to do to be honest. I just can't stop thinking about my five little babies that didn't make it & I just want to be pregnant again. I spent nearly nine months pregnant over 18 months & have no baby to show for it. Sorry for the downer :-(