I've been away living life for the past 12ish months but I'm back because this forum out weighs all others & I'm hoping some hubbers may be able to offer some advice & support.
I have recently acknowledged, for the first time ever, that some things that happened to me as a child, truly were tragic & my 'late term' ab0rti0n was one of these tragic events I have never processed or healed from.
I've been googling all night & I guess it is no surprise, that procedures of this nature are so hidden from the public, I can't get any answers.
Firstly I was 13 at the time the ab0rti0n was preformed, and I have no idea how far along I was.
I don't really feel like I had a say in what happened. I feel I was manipulated by my parents & it didn't help that I couldn't speak up & tell the doctors the truth.
I have been searching for details around the procedure, but;
1. My GP record's have been destroyed
2. The clinic that performed the ab0rti0n is not returning my calls
3. My mother is yet to assist me to Access my medicare records at the time.
I feel betrayed in many ways as I don't feel anything was explained to me in any depth. My parents flat out refused to have a single convocation about the pregnancy from the date of confirmation right up until this day (approx 17 years later)
I really need to hear from others about their experiences with surgical ab0rti0ns & gestational age at which their procedure was carried out.
I feel there was more to my procedure that no one is willing to discuss.
What I DO know about my procedure;
*I was atleast 16 weeks at first GP app. I did cry/worried it was too late to have an ab0rti0n but the GP assured me they could do something to the paperwork so that I could have the procedure done in day surgery without police involvement.
*At the clinic, nobody would answer my questions about what would be done with the baby after the procedure.
*The lady who did the ultra sound on the day of the procedure, would not show me any images of the baby
*after the ultrasound I had to wait AGES in the pre-opp room as they needed my mother to return to the clinic to sign more paper work. They would not tell me why & I found this frustrating as we had already signed everything (they knew my age, confirmed the pregnancy, mum had settled the account, and I was not allowed to see or sign these 'other forms' myself)
*I believe I was given medication while waiting (I'm not sure why)
*As I was lead into the theater, I told the nurse I had changed my mind & was informed that it was 'too late'
*I remember crying as I went under general & waking up so sick & in a lot of pain.
*I remember so many women coming into recovery & leaving while I was still there vomiting & unable to stand.
I feel I was a lot further along then I was lead to believe, and I really think I deserve to know the truth.
Any advice on where to look or how to access these records of a procedure that happened so long ago? Surely there would be a record SOMEWHERE.
Age aside, does this sound like standard procedure to you? I can't stop thinking about it.